Breathe - NF
I grew up in a small place,
had to drive an hour just to see a movie
I'm a simple person,
city life just doesn't move me
I'd rather be home with my grandparents
and playing Uko
Didn't wanna leave but this dream's calling,
I had to do it
I left my girl there,
wish I would've done it different
She was right when she told me
that I don't ever listen
I told her I would change a million times
and never did it
Apologies don't mean a thing
if you don't ever fix it
I love what I do but it's not what I expected
This industry is not your friend,
well it's my perspective
Sometimes the closest people to you
make you feel protected
But those are the same people that hurt
you most and leave you guessing
Some people say nobody's perfect
but expect perfection
How you supposed to find the answer
if you don't ask the question?
Sometimes I look into the mirror
and talk to my reflection
When I go home and turn the music off,
what am I left with?
We used to be close but it's time past,
we became disconnected
You never felt love and I always felt disrespected
Your family thought I was a joke,
I was always defensive
They just wanted what was best for you,
I just couldn't accept it
And hurting you was not a part of my plan
or my intentions
But I was immature,
I guess I had to learn some lessons
We grew apart and our lives
went in different directions
And there's a lot of responsibilities
that I neglected
I had a lot that was bottled inside,
couldn't express it
And this pain won't leave,
I can feel the depression
It's taking over my body,
feels like I'm always stressing
Doctor told me I should sleep,
but I'm always restless
I lay awake at night and think,
my thoughts are relentless
I need a moment to breathe,
I need a moment to vent this
I seem to be the only person
that I play pretend with
And when I turn the music off,
what am I really left with huh?